In the moment, my eyes filled with tears, as I knew he was telling me something. He was giving me support in such a beautiful peaceful way as I sat in the residue of shame and guilt from a difficult week of being a special needs mama.
Fast forward to today, it has been particularly hard the last few days. I am doubting myself as a mama and the residue of the hard is sitting heavily on my heart.
However, I now realize that this cup needs more! In fact, it needs one more word to make it complete and true. I need to add “Not” between “I am” and “Enough”. The truth is, I am not enough. I cannot do it all. I cannot fix it all. I am not actually a super mom.
But… (and this is a huge “but!“), I have a Heavenly Papa who is. He is the Papa that has caught me so many times. He is the Papa that knows my heart deeply and catches every tear. He is the Papa that says, “I am fearfully and wonderfully made” and that “His love for me outnumbers the grains of sand.” He is the Papa that says He directs my steps, and my hope and strength is in Him.
Beautiful friends…especially those that parent a beautiful special needs child… the truth is, YOU are not enough. You were never meant to be “it all!” You cannot fix it all…and aren’t you weary from trying? I am.
So, I ask you. “Who is your running mate?”
(Please forgive the election humor, but considering all the election craziness, I just had to…)
Oh, but He can! God’s word and His presence can instantly bring you peace. He can come up with a game plan and settle a situation if you ask Him. He can. So, the next time you find yourself heavy with the residue of life, don’t ignore His gentle whispers to “come away” with Him. It can be 10 minutes, or 10 seconds. It doesn’t matter. He will always be there, and He deeply sees you.
He sees you!
